I’m hoping I’m not alone when I say I’m the type of person that spends a lot of time thinking about where I should be, what other people are doing, and how my life is lacking in comparison to theirs. I spend a lot of time doing this, too much time.
It causes me a lot of anxiety and self despair. Some days I can’t even face attempting to reassure myself, I’m that awkward to reason with. I guess when you’re growing up in a world full of social media, it’s easy to get washed away in everyone else’s edited and glossy looking lives.
It was my birthday last weekend. And I spent a lot of it wondering why I’m not doing x, y or z like people my age. It got me down a lot, but really, it shouldn’t. I’ve had a lovely, stress free weekend. I could cry with how lovely people have been! ❤
My sister made me a rather glamorous cake, see the resemblance? 😉
I don’t want to be that person that thinks ‘I wish…’ or ‘I could have been’. I have this terrible fear of wanting to make the most of things, of life, because I see so many people pouring out their regrets, or complaining and trying to drag people down for their achievements, when they’ve never made an effort. Success takes work, and time. Nothing lands on your plate, as much as I wish it would.
I think I’m admitting that I have a fear of failing. Failing life. At getting older and not doing things. Just falling into the motions. Although I’m really not sure how you can fail at life, so I’m just going to sit and laugh at myself for being silly.
A quote popped up on Facebook, and normally I just ignore them because my feed is littered with too many videos and cringe worthy ‘share if you love dogs’ posts. But this one caught my eye, and it’s so true I wanted to sob in a heap like the emotional wreck I am.
YOUR CURRENT SITUATION IS NOT YOUR FINAL DESTINATION
It’s true. So so true.
Tomorrow will be better.
Strange Made Me 
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